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Dont know how to do this...I am new. If I am at the wrong place, please help me find the right one.... i Was in the ike disaster.  I was already indigent before.  All I had was my car, but since I was already poor, the car was in my grandmothers name, so FEMA is not going to do anything.  the house I rented was in my mothers name, so there was nothing that could be done there.  my husband has finally found a job at a hotel, but I have difficulty even wanting to face the day anymore.  My husband has DVT and we have no transportation to get him to doc because within walking distance here was UTMB.  My son had to walk home from work one night because I didnt have bus fare or cab fare and he was mugged for a pair of tennis shoes and a cell phone that his grandmother had given him.  I dont realy want a hand-out...I mean funds would be great to get back on my feet and would be much appreciated, but I want to work up and try to make the best of this situation.  We are living six in a one bedroom apartment with a loft.  i have tried every resource that i know of to try and get someone to at least listen to me, no one seems to care.  I am not a free loader, I am willing to help for every one that is willing to help me.  I was raised that nothing comes free.  i want to help others like me to get on their feet as well.  I cannot work right now because all the medical jobs here are shut down because of all the flooding.  I lost my jeep, it still sits in the parking lot and I see it as a daily reminder that it is not my lifeline anymore.  I cannot go off the island to even find a better job for what my qualifications are.  I am so depressed.  i am not feeling sorry for myself, dont get me wrong, i am just at the point of frustration and giving up.  I have pawned everything that i own for food and running out continuously.  If it was me and my husband we would not mind living on the streets, but our kids, any children deserve better.  I have failed them and failed myself.  When I watch the shows I see on my moms tv set about how much in life people take for granted, it makes me so sad.  I am a certified medical office specialist.  I have so much to offer and cannot do anything about it.  I type 75 words a minute and cannot make anything doing that because all the online searches and govt searches that i have tried want money to get me some help, geez if I had money, why would i be looking for them to help me.  I sit day after day, just frustrated, what can be done.  I want help so bad, we have nothing, clothes, home, car, my kids sleep in a dirty floor, or wherever is available.  My mother lost her job and can no longer help us with our living needs.  we are not at rock bottom, we are under the rock.   We have no assets,  nothing.... The sad thing is that we are well educated and hard working people and even drug dealers make more money.  We are willing to do anything for anyone to help us, are willing to "pay it forward" each and every day of my life.  I want to start my own buisness anything.  I feel like I can make a difference in someones life.  I just want some one to touch mine.  I am so sad and depressed. I feel such a loser to my children, I just want to give up and i know that i cant.  I cry day after day.  I am bipolar, so believe me that is just another something to keep me from living a real life.  I just want a decent life.  Not a million dollars, just a push in the right direction.  MOney would help get me and the kids around in a car.  ANd advice on how I could help others would keep my heart going around.  Please help me.  I am so lost and do not even know if there is any hope left.  Hope isnt for suckers.  But I have nothing left to hold on to.  I even thought about death, because at least my kids would get my SSI and at least they might have a chance...  WE have nothing and I never thought that I would be the one that would ever say that because even at middle class, i still thought that there was hope.  When you are under the rock however, it is so hard to see daylight.  I am so depressed right now so I will close because the last thing I want to do is feel sorry for myself, and when I am not positive, that is what happens.  HUMAN NATURE SOMETIMES HUH....I hope some one listens...I just really need help so bad this thing is just too much right now, i just want to dissappear and crawl in a hole and hope when I wake up it is all better.  Hand outs are a dime a dozen, but I am willing to give when I am back on my feet each and every day of my life.  I really feel like my life was not a waste.  I was meant to do something for someone and make a difference in this world.  I do not want to be in this situation.  I want to provide to those like someone might find it in thier heart to provide for me....please help us....we are so desperate and do not want to live on the street....